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0|0|0|||1||i always thought|beautifulvoice||02:20:48|06/08/2002|..that I was the innocent one...and one day i would find my prince..%0D%0Ahe%27d be creative%2C and intelligent...and he%27d protect me from everything..%0D%0ABut my heart isn%27t so patient..and so it latches on..to any vestiges of those aspects I see..and I get my heart broken more often than not. Most of the time%2C the people who do it don%27t even realize it..don%27t understand how painful every criticm is..%0D%0AI%27m like the second-best student in the class%2C I feel sometimes..there%27s always someone better%2C someone who everyone looks at because THEY%27RE the best%2C and no one has time for my second-rate attempts at anything. And when ever I comment on the best student%27s work%2Cpositive%2C negative%2C or neutral.if I ever argue with his statements%2C if I do something to try to impress him...everything is either given either harsh words or just flat out ignored. And since I%27ve already chosen the best student as my prince%2C every time it%27s like a knife in me. %0D%0AAnd this seems to go on aevery time I fall in love. Am I doomed to repeat this cycle of one-sided loves that hurt%3F I%27m doing wrong and wrong again...%0D%0A%0D%0A%0D%0A The Beautiful Voice Admin%0D%0A-%5Blink%3Ageocities.com%2Flady_kozue %7CLady Kozue%27s Media Archive%5D%0D%0A-%5Blink%3Ageocities.com%2Fthebeautifulvoice%7CThe Beautiful Voice%5D %0D%0AI%27m doing wrong and wrong again but I fell in love with this mistake.%0D%0ATo blame you%2C unmask you and give up%2C will it let me feel better%3F%0D%0A-Faye Wong%2C Cold War
1|1|0|||1||RE%3A i always thought|Gryphon||02:38:02|06/08/2002|%3EAm I doomed to %0D%0A%3Erepeat this cycle of one-sided loves that hurt%3F %0D%0A%0D%0AProbably.  Everybody else is.  Why should you be any different%3F%0D%0A%0D%0ASurprised to hear this from the architect of the World of Happy Endings%3F  You shouldn%27t be.  Why do you think I%27m so bent on depicting a universe whose overarching quality is Justice%2C in which such concepts as real love%2C communication and the triumph of a pure heart are not only attainable%2C but critical%3F%0D%0A%0D%0AFor those of you in the audience who aren%27t of a literary bent%2C I%27ll fill it in for you%3A it%27s called %5Bi%5Descapism%5B%2Fi%5D.  See%2C I%27m not lucky enough to be delusional.  I have a very firm grasp of what is real and what only exists in my head.  And what is %5Bi%5Dreal%5B%2Fi%5D is that all of my ideals are at best vanishingly rare%2C at worst utter fantasy%2C in the real world I live in.  That being the case%2C I have to have some way of escaping the crushing irrelevancy of the real world%27s truths.  Corwin Ravenhair may be a Bad Religion fan solely because he likes their sound%2C but me%3F  I believe in their message%2C much as I wish I didn%27t have to.%0D%0A%0D%0ASo you%27re preaching to the choir on this one%2C BV.  For additional material%2C I refer you to Denis Leary%27s seminal tract on the subject%2C %22Rehab%22 %28track 3%2C %5Bi%5DNo Cure for Cancer%5B%2Fi%5D%29.%0D%0A%0D%0A--G.%0D%0A-%3E%3C-%0D%0ABenjamin D. Hutchins%2C Co-Founder%2C Editor in Chief%2C Netadmin%0D%0AEyrie Productions%2C Unlimited  http%3A%2F%2Fwww.eyrie-productions.com%2F%0D%0A
2|2|1|||1||RE%3A i always thought|beautifulvoice||02:47:44|06/08/2002|%2Astomps down the urge to sing Bette Midler at this point%2A%0D%0AYes I am surprised for you to respond to it.. not as surprised at your message%2C so much as you were the one who said it. But I suppose being as it%27s your board%2C you have more right to it..and I understand what you%27ve said. I%27m not trying to change the world%2C or change myself..%0D%0ATo blame you%2C unmask you%2C and give up%2C would that make me feel better%3F%0D%0A%0D%0A%0D%0A The Beautiful Voice Admin%0D%0A-%5Blink%3Ageocities.com%2Flady_kozue %7CLady Kozue%27s Media Archive%5D%0D%0A-%5Blink%3Ageocities.com%2Fthebeautifulvoice%7CThe Beautiful Voice%5D %0D%0AI%27m doing wrong and wrong again but I fell in love with this mistake.%0D%0ATo blame you%2C unmask you and give up%2C will it let me feel better%3F%0D%0A-Faye Wong%2C Cold War
4|3|2|||1||RE%3A i always thought|trigger||17:17:11|06/11/2002|%3E%2Astomps down the urge to sing Bette Midler at this point%2A %0D%0A%3EYes I am surprised for you to respond to it.. not as surprised at your %0D%0A%3Emessage%2C so much as you were the one who said it. But I suppose being %0D%0A%3Eas it%27s your board%2C you have more right to it..and I understand what %0D%0A%3Eyou%27ve said. I%27m not trying to change the world%2C or change myself.. %0D%0A%3ETo blame you%2C unmask you%2C and give up%2C would that make me feel better%3F %0D%0A%0D%0ABette Midler%3F  Oh dear. %0D%0A%0D%0AAnd why not try to change yourself%3F%0D%0A%0D%0At.%0D%0A%5Bi%5Dwell%2C you%27ve got to have faith%2C faith%2C faith...%5B%2Fi%5D%0D%0A%0D%0ATrigger Argee%0D%0Atrigger_argee%40hotmail.com%0D%0AManon%2C Maccadon%2C Orado%2C etc.%0D%0ADenton%2C never leave home without it.%0D%0A%0D%0A%22Pretty ambitious for a tree%2C isn%27t it%3F%22%0D%0A%0D%0A
3|1|0|||1||RE%3A i always thought|trigger||17:15:41|06/11/2002|%0D%0A%3EAnd this seems to go on aevery time I fall in love. Am I doomed to %0D%0A%3Erepeat this cycle of one-sided loves that hurt%3F I%27m doing wrong and %0D%0A%3Ewrong again... %0D%0A%0D%0ATHE VOICE OF EXPERIENCE SPEAKS%3A%0D%0A%0D%0AAhem.  Get a new prince%2C eh%3F  Or take Utena%27s advice - become one yourself.  Life should not be spent chasing the Akio Ohtori%27s of the world.  %0D%0A%0D%0AAlso%2C since you seem a little desperate for some TLC%2C I would suggest learning to love yourself first%2C and then love others.  If you don%27t love yourself%2C that why should anyone else%3F%0D%0A%0D%0At.%0D%0A%5Bi%5Dgirlfriend%2C we done all be%27n there...%5B%2Fi%5D%0D%0A%0D%0ATrigger Argee%0D%0Atrigger_argee%40hotmail.com%0D%0AManon%2C Maccadon%2C Orado%2C etc.%0D%0ADenton%2C never leave home without it.%0D%0A%0D%0A%22Pretty ambitious for a tree%2C isn%27t it%3F%22%0D%0A%0D%0A
5|2|3|||1||RE%3A i always thought|beautifulvoice||00:18:54|06/12/2002|%3ETHE VOICE OF EXPERIENCE SPEAKS%3A %0D%0A%3E%0D%0A%3EAhem.  Get a new prince%2C eh%3F  Or take Utena%27s advice - become one %0D%0A%3Eyourself.  Life should not be spent chasing the Akio Ohtori%27s of the %0D%0A%3Eworld. %0D%0A%0D%0AThe person referenced would find a comparison to Akio humorous to the point of breaking%2C I%27m sure..as for getting a new prince...I suffer from rampant emotions that are quite hard to manage. They lead me into a lot of trouble%2C especially since I%27m not the type of person to let sleeping dogs lie. Lucky I%27ve been studying kaioukenryu. No Blade of the Inviolate Soul%2C but hey%2C keeps me from getting my nose broken.%0D%0A%0D%0A%0D%0A%3EAlso%2C since you seem a little desperate for some TLC%2C I would suggest %0D%0A%3Elearning to love yourself first%2C and then love others.  If you don%27t %0D%0A%3Elove yourself%2C that why should anyone else%3F %0D%0A%3E%0D%0A%3Et. %0D%0A%3E%5Bi%5Dgirlfriend%2C we done all be%27n there...%5B%2Fi%5D %0D%0A%0D%0AUmm..heh. I suppose you%27re right.%0D%0A%0D%0A%0D%0A The Beautiful Voice Admin%0D%0A-%5Blink%3Ageocities.com%2Flady_kozue %7CLady Kozue%27s Media Archive%5D%0D%0A-%5Blink%3Ageocities.com%2Fthebeautifulvoice%7CThe Beautiful Voice%5D 
6|1|0|||1||RE%3A i always thought|Peter Eng||00:47:28|06/12/2002|%3E..that I was the innocent one...and one day i would find my prince.. %0D%0A%3Ehe%27d be creative%2C and intelligent...and he%27d protect me from %0D%0A%3Eeverything.. %0D%0A%3E%0D%0A%0D%0AI am%2C IMO%2C the last person to speak to if you want useful advice on affairs of the heart - I haven%27t even had a screwed-up love affair yet%2C never mind a successful one.%0D%0A%0D%0ABut one thing I do know%3A  If somebody says %22looking for a prince%2C%22 and means %22looking for somebody to make me happy%2C%22 that person is going to be looking for a long time.%0D%0A%0D%0AWhat you mean by %22I would find my prince...and he%27d protect me from everything..%22 is a secret between you and the wall.  But I%27ve seen enough people seeking princes %28or princesses%29 to know that it%27s a bad idea.%0D%0A%0D%0APeter Eng%0D%0A--%0D%0ACry %27CHEEBLE%2C%27 and let slip the hamsters of war%21
7|2|6|||1||RE%3A i always thought|beautifulvoice||04:31:02|06/12/2002|%3E%3E..that I was the innocent one...and one day i would find my prince.. %0D%0A%3E%3Ehe%27d be creative%2C and intelligent...and he%27d protect me from %0D%0A%3E%3Eeverything.. %0D%0A%3E%3E%0D%0A%3E%0D%0A%3EI am%2C IMO%2C the last person to speak to if you want useful advice on %0D%0A%3Eaffairs of the heart - I haven%27t even had a screwed-up love affair %0D%0A%3Eyet%2C never mind a successful one. %0D%0A%3E%0D%0A%3EBut one thing I do know%3A  If somebody says %22looking for a prince%2C%22 and %0D%0A%3Emeans %22looking for somebody to make me happy%2C%22 that person is going to %0D%0A%3Ebe looking for a long time. %0D%0A%0D%0AThat%27s not what I meant by that..I guess I mostly meant %22someone strong%2C who%27s not afraid to be human when the situation calls for it%2C who can handle the insane waves of my emotions....someone who%27s a bit ruled by his emotions but is still able to cope with life.%22%0D%0AThe acutal phrase comes from a very good fic featuring my avatar%2C almost all of which is lost. Most here wouldn%27t have interest in it.%0D%0A%3E%0D%0A%3EWhat you mean by %22I would find my prince...and he%27d protect me from %0D%0A%3Eeverything..%22 is a secret between you and the wall.  But I%27ve seen %0D%0A%3Eenough people seeking princes %28or princesses%29 to know that it%27s a bad %0D%0A%3Eidea. %0D%0A%3E%0D%0AThe irony of that statement is enough to make me fall out of my chair.  But alas..%0D%0A%3E-- %0D%0A%3ECry %27CHEEBLE%2C%27 and let slip the hamsters of war%21 %0D%0A%0D%0AFOUL%21%0D%0A%0D%0A The Beautiful Voice Admin%2C who just watched his first episode of Hamtaro yesterday...scary stuff...%0D%0A-%5Blink%3Ageocities.com%2Flady_kozue %7CLady Kozue%27s Media Archive%5D%0D%0A-%5Blink%3Ageocities.com%2Fthebeautifulvoice%7CThe Beautiful Voice%5D