>Should I try anyway, or am I just deluding myself?

What BZArcher said. Don't worry about quality at this point -- as I say in my eternally-unfinished fanfic writer's guide, "It's not the writing, but the rewriting, that is great." Or, as Ernest Hemingway put it, "The first draft of anything is shit."

First write, then write well. Trying to do it the other way 'round just frustrates and causes waste of paper.

-- Bob
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My race is pacifist and does not believe in war. We kill only out of personal spite.