On the topic of buying used, that decision has lead to you having something of a badass euphonium (which is a word combination that may never have been tried before, and is certainly not likely to have occurred often.) Now the scar just needs a suitable story so your horn can flirt with the cute French horns at the bar.

As for the rest, my lack of knowledge of music prevents pretty much anything meaningful from coming out of my fingers. I will say you are far from alone vis-à-vis hating being bad at things and avoiding them rather than dealing with being so, so I hope your efforts to recapture a bit of your school days joy and skill goes well. I suspect all of us suffers of 'What, I'm not innately great at this? F@ck it!' syndrome are rooting for you.

	-={(Astynax)}=- "Huh, you can acronymize that to WINIGATFI syndrome, which sounds vaguely like some actual rare diease.."