As for the rest, my lack of knowledge of music prevents pretty much anything meaningful from coming out of my fingers. I will say you are far from alone vis-à-vis hating being bad at things and avoiding them rather than dealing with being so, so I hope your efforts to recapture a bit of your school days joy and skill goes well. I suspect all of us suffers of 'What, I'm not innately great at this? F@ck it!' syndrome are rooting for you.

	-={(Astynax)}=- "Huh, you can acronymize that to WINIGATFI syndrome, which sounds vaguely like some actual rare diease.."